I'm experiencing some growing pains right now.
In my last blog post (more than a year ago) I talked about my progress in school. About how I was getting ready to teach a course, working on my dissertation, getting my ducks in a row. I taught the course and things went well. I got my ducks in pretty neat rows for all school related things except my dissertation. I couldn't make progress on that. I had a variety of ideas but couldn't get to the spot where they were more than just ideas.
My inactivity made me less successful in school than optimal and with encouragement from my department, I left grad school in May. I spent some time applying for jobs and working at a temp job in Georgia before being offered and accepting a position in Nebraska. Chase and I moved to Nebraska in the beginning of August and we've now been here for one month.
Things are going smoothly. I like my new job and really like and respect my boss. It's important to me to respect and value those I work with, especially because we'll be working so closely together, so I'm really pleased to be able to say that. Chase got a job in the same organization as me so we commute to work and can spend our lunches together. We're really liking having "adult jobs" and are happy to start planning for the future. We're in a nice house and we're starting to save up to buy a place of our own - though that might take a bit longer than we'd like. Linny and Cisco have adjusted well to the increase in space and love that we now have stairs to run up and down.
Today I went to a new employee orientation and was reminded of how much has changed in the last 6 months. I recently started having dreams about all of my Georgia friends, about leaving school, and about still being a grad student. I think they're only happening now because I feel like things are settling down and our life is peaceful. My mind finally has the space to begin to process all of the change we've gone through so recently. But I can't say I'm enjoying the dreams.
I'm unsettled today. We're closer to family now and we love that so much but I don't have many friends here and there's nothing that would feel better right now than to plan a poker night with my Georgia friends and sit around and bullshit with them. I miss them. I know things will change and I'll develop new friendships but right now I'm homesick for Georgia.
I changed the name of my blog and the address to it because "New Peach Old Husker" felt outdated, netogo.blogspot.com isn't me anymore and I want something more permanent. Something that reflects what's going on inside me now that I'm more than just a transplant in a foreign land. I want something I can grow with.
So here I hope to write (more often) about getting ready for what's happening next... For processing and moving on.
