Process... To Make Ready

I'm experiencing some growing pains right now.

In my last blog post (more than a year ago) I talked about my progress in school. About how I was getting ready to teach a course, working on my dissertation, getting my ducks in a row. I taught the course and things went well. I got my ducks in pretty neat rows for all school related things except my dissertation. I couldn't make progress on that. I had a variety of ideas but couldn't get to the spot where they were more than just ideas.

My inactivity made me less successful in school than optimal and with encouragement from my department, I left grad school in May. I spent some time applying for jobs and working at a temp job in Georgia before being offered and accepting a position in Nebraska. Chase and I moved to Nebraska in the beginning of August and we've now been here for one month.

Things are going smoothly. I like my new job and really like and respect my boss. It's important to me to respect and value those I work with, especially because we'll be working so closely together, so I'm really pleased to be able to say that. Chase got a job in the same organization as me so we commute to work and can spend our lunches together. We're really liking having "adult jobs" and are happy to start planning for the future.  We're in a nice house and we're starting to save up to buy a place of our own - though that might take a bit longer than we'd like. Linny and Cisco have adjusted well to the increase in space and love that we now have stairs to run up and down.

Today I went to a new employee orientation and was reminded of how much has changed in the last 6 months. I recently started having dreams about all of my Georgia friends, about leaving school, and about still being a grad student. I think they're only happening now because I feel like things are settling down and our life is peaceful. My mind finally has the space to begin to process all of the change we've gone through so recently. But I can't say I'm enjoying the dreams.

I'm unsettled today. We're closer to family now and we love that so much but I don't have many friends here and there's nothing that would feel better right now than to plan a poker night with my Georgia friends and sit around and bullshit with them. I miss them. I know things will change and I'll develop new friendships but right now I'm homesick for Georgia.

I changed the name of my blog and the address to it because "New Peach Old Husker" felt outdated, netogo.blogspot.com isn't me anymore and I want something more permanent. Something that reflects what's going on inside me now that I'm more than just a transplant in a foreign land. I want something I can grow with.

So here I hope to write (more often) about getting ready for what's happening next... For processing and moving on.

Brain Space

I'm spending the day cleaning and organizing things. I start teaching a summer course on Friday (what a weird day to start a course) and still need to finalize the syllabus and the outline for the course. But of course, before I really get to work on that, I've got lots of other stuff to clean and organize around the house. Laundry to do, bills to organize and pay, blogs to catch up on.

I've been on vacation for about the last three weeks, only getting little time sensitive things done, and I'm more than ready to get back to work. Last night as I was cleaning out my RSS feed (I've switched over to Feedly; damn Google Reader and it's sad demise), I came across a post by Kottke on inventions and inspiration. In the interest of maximizing my cleaning, I opened it in a new tab but didn't read it until today.

I still haven't figured out what I'm going to do for my dissertation. I need time and space to sit and wade through the ideas and literature I'm interested in. Time to get to my idea. This article feels like encouragement.

In a similar vein, yesterday I watched Hyde Park on Hudson and one of the scenes has stuck with me. Franklin Roosevelt and the King of England were talking, alone after dinner, and discussing the women in their lives. The women were always buzzing around them with ideas and worries and thoughts, and Roosevelt told the King that whenever he needed a little space to think about something he opened up his stamp collection and everyone left him alone.

I need space to organize my thoughts. My interests. To get my ducks in a row. To be productive. To come up with great ideas.

I'm back from vacation and I'm drawing out my stamp collection. I'm looking for the adjacent possible.

Record Keeping

Books I've Read in 2012 (AKA I Read 18 Books This Year!):

(March) part of MacKinnon and Heise – Self, Identity, and Social Institutions

(May) Veronica Roth – Insurgent

(May) Robert Whitaker – Anatomy of an Epidemic: Magic Bullets, Psychiatric Drugs, and the Astonishing Rise of Mental Illness in America

(May) Mental Health, Social Mirror (edited volume by Avison, McLeod, and Pescosolido)

(May) The New Blackwell Companion to Medical Sociology (edited volume by Cockerham)

(May) Advances in the Conceptualization of the Stress Process (edited volume by Avison, Aneshensel, Schieman, and Wheaton)

(June) Handbook for the Sociology of Health, Illness, and Healing (edited volume by Pescosolido, Martin, McLeod, and Rogers)

(July) Michael Marmot – The Status Syndrome: How Social Status Affects our Health and Longevity

(September) John Green – The Fault in Our Stars

(September) Timothy Pachirat – Every Twelve Seconds: Industrialized Slaughter and the Politics of Sight

(September) Mary Blair-Loy – Competing Devotions: Career and Family among Women Executives

(September) Susie Orbach – Bodies

(October) Tanner Colby – Some of My Best Friends are Black

(October) Anne Lamott - Bird by Bird

(November) Erving Goffman – Stigma

(December) Caitlin Moran – How to be a Woman

(December) Baratunde Thurston – How to be Black

(December) Chad Harbach – The Art of Fielding

New New Camera!

I got a new camera again! Woo! Remember three posts (or almost five months ago, ha) when I got my last new camera? Yeah, well it broke within a week and I returned it. It was a Canon 310HS and had a switch to go from automatic shooting to programs to use to shoot with and the switch didn't reliably actually make the switch between modes.

I bought the camera after a long (broke) summer and as soon as I returned it the money was needed elsewhere ($1200 of car repairs/new tires this fall!) so I couldn't actually afford to replace it until now. Instead of getting a new Canon 310HS (which they seem to have stopped making??) I went for something that will help me (hopefully) transition into a DSLR someday. I got the Canon S100 and it has automatic modes as well as manual modes and allows me to set up the aperture and shutter speed. I've used it a bunch in the short time I've had it and really love it.

Here are some shots from this weekend. (Unedited and all shot with the automatic setting) (Click on the photo to see the large size)


Us, last night

 Gaming

 Sugargum seed

 Linny with a long neck













Afternoon date (my meal)

 Chase and his meal

Linny after a lot of ball chasing at the soccer field

In with the New

In 2013 I hope to do a few things differently, hopefully better, and one thing I'd like to work on to help me accomplish that is blogging. I've got a handful of goals for the new year, some travel goals, school goals, body goals, etc, and I'd like a place to house my progress and struggles so I can look back and see tangible evidence of growth towards my goals.

I've tried blogging here in the past and have gotten disenchanted when I didn't get many comments and felt like no one was reading my stuff. This year I hope that'll change a bit but mostly I just want to document life for my sake.

When I write here I often feel like I need to hone what I'm writing... to put my best foot forward and work from there, and I'd like to work on changing that a bit this year. Yes, it's important to be able to effectively communicate your point, but sometimes that point takes a while to figure out and in the meantime you might learn from just talking it out. I plan on doing some of that talking here.


(I think some of this stems from my professional background... I'm in a sociology graduate program and I'm being taught to say very specific things with very specific words and encouraged to read and revise until exactly what I intend is written on paper. Words that seem similar, like disparity and inequality, or mental health and mental disorder, are written on extensively and often the subject of intense debate. I tend to shy away from some of these words because of the... crap that surrounds the word... the tradition that uses it, what they mean when they say someone has mental health, etc. Here I'm going to try to leave that at the door and talk about what I think regardless of the multitude of things it could mean. And hopefully my intended meaning will be clear, and if not, I'll say more if that's requested.)

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To begin:

Right now I'm hiding at school while Chase (my boyfriend) and his dad, stepmom, and sister invade my house. I'll have it back in less than 16 hours. Time could not pass fast enough tonight. I'm so happy Chase's parents split when he was younger, if only so that I can easily have a favorite future-in-law (his mom). And with those few words, I'll stop before I say something (else?) I shouldn't.

Friday Night

Curling my hair, only to put it up before we go out.

Going on a walk...

and stumbling upon the college girls' soccer scrimmage.

Heading home to watch Chase change my headlight...

and ending the evening with some relaxing tv. (Not pictured).

Low key for the win. Hope yours was just as nice.

Sun Soaked

I got a new camera this week. I think I'll share my photos here.

Oh, and you're wondering what I've been up to this summer? Well, mostly this:

Final Book List 2011

(I only read one book after October... that's too bad. Hopefully this year will be ripe with reading.)

Spring:
-?
(Really? None? Sad.)

Summer:
-Man Walks Into a Room by Nicole Krauss
-Eating Animals by Jonathan Safran Foer
-The Managed Heart by Arlie Hochschild
-Elsewhere, USA by Dalton Conley
-The Pecking Order by Dalton Conley
-Veronika Decides to Die by Paulo Coelho
-Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins
-Catching Fire by Suzanne Collins
-Mockingjay by Suzanne Collins


Fall:
-The Help by Kathryn Stockett
-Then Came You: A Novel by Jennifer Weiner
-More Than Just Race by William Julius Wilson
-Divergent Social Worlds by Ruth D. Peterson And Lauren J. Krivo
-Genes and Behavior by Sir Michael Rutter

Winter:
-Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me? (And Other Concerns) by Mindy Kaling

Books (2011)

Let's update this list.

Books I've read this year (not in exact order):

Spring:
-?
(Really? None? Sad.)

Summer:
-Man Walks Into a Room by Nicole Krauss
-Eating Animals by Jonathan Safran Foer
-The Managed Heart by Arlie Hochschild
-Elsewhere, USA by Dalton Conley
-The Pecking Order by Dalton Conley
-Veronika Decides to Die by Paulo Coelho
-Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins
-Catching Fire by Suzanne Collins
-Mockingjay by Suzanne Collins


Fall:
-The Help by Kathryn Stockett
-Then Came You: A Novel by Jennifer Weiner
-More Than Just Race by William Julius Wilson
-Divergent Social Worlds by Ruth D. Peterson And Lauren J. Krivo
-Genes and Behavior by Sir Michael Rutter

-To be updated as the year progresses... Though I don't have high hopes for the last two months.

Goals

I think it helps to send things out. Out into the abyss. The great unknown. The world of ears. The hearts of your beloved. (These aren't all the same thing.) If I don't send it out it's easier for me to push it down, justify why I don't or can't have it. Acknowledging that I want it makes it easier for me to work for it. And I think there's power in the abyss. I don't think The Secret or Laws of Attraction are at work per say but I think saying it aloud increases the power that "it" has. That then increases the effect that it has on you and your decision making.

In an effort to push myself towards these things I present to you, my goals. (Note that some are large and ambiguous. That's probably better than having only specific, little goals.)

Short term:
-Present at ASA in August. The one in Denver, to be specific.
-Get to visit Nebraska for about two weeks (at least one and a half full weeks) this Christmas break.
-Defend my thesis successfully.
-Pay back parents for loaned money.

Long term:
-PhD
-Job at a nice University.
-Lose the last 20 pounds.
-Wedding, house, child, child, child, dog.

What are you sending out?

Feelings

This semester is kicking my ass. Kind of.

I'm getting much better at managing my time. I feel like I understand more than I ever have before. I'm doing a lot, and I'm getting it done.

I could have added qualifiers to all of those statements. But I didn't. I'm working to encourage myself and talk positively about myself without contradicting my earlier statement before I've even finished a sentence.

Instead of saying "I'm getting better at managing my time, but I've cut out some things I really miss" it's just "I'm getting better at managing my time." It's not a big change but it's enough to keep me going.

I've needed a cheerleader a lot this semester. I often tell Chase "I can do it" just to hear him echo it back to me. He's started encouraging me by saying "Go go Icallo" which is a play off the phrase "Go go buffalo" from Idle Hands. It's amusing.

I'm taking ONE class next semester. I'm taking a teaching course too but it's much more like a non-intensive seminar so it doesn't really count. I've got a month and some change left with this load. Then I'll be done with this four class crap. I bet I can do it. I can get there.

I signed up for my course load and work load thinking that I'd slacked last spring when I should * have finished my thesis and wanted to prove to myself that I could do a lot, all at once. I wonder if that was a good tactic. Pushing myself to my limit to see what my limit was/is. I suppose we'll find out.

In the meantime I'm going to go read a book for class tomorrow.

*According to my standards. According to the grad department I have until this December to finish and defend it. So technically I'm not behind schedule.

Absence

I haven't posted in months. I'm trying to decide if I should ignore it or note it and apologize. But it's my blog and I shouldn't have to apologize.

Whatever. Here are a few things I like:

-Smart students

-Jackets for Georgia's winter.

-This waterfall. It's maybe my favorite set of waterfalls ever. (Chase and I visited it this weekend and I can't wait to go back.)

-Blogs that post things that make me nervous and push me as a student.

(I'm taking lots of classes this semester, working semi part time, trying to get my thesis defended, and trying to relax in between those things, please give me a break for being silent.)

(Oh hey, I guess I decided to apologize for my absence and ask for your patience and understanding!)

Summer's Ending

It feels like classes start tomorrow and the daily naps will no longer be allowed. Even though I've got three weeks til that is reality.

Since getting back from vacation (4 days near the beach in North Carolina) and spending the last week moving and packing, I feel like my work ethic has slid into a coma and though I'm trying to coax it back to life, it's reluctant. I've only finished two books since the beginning of the month, even though I should be rounding on four this weekend. I haven't been writing for my thesis, though I had a really good talk with a classmate about it and feel like it's not insurmountable and I've been doing even less statistical work.

I'm going to save the new pictures of our place for the next entry, after we have everything fully unpacked and looking nice. Right now we've about about 85% of our stuff unpacked and organized but the rest is just strewn around the rooms it will eventually belong in.

I meant to post vacation pictures just after I got back from North Carolina but my sister had the majority of the good ones and I wanted to wait until I had those.

So without further ado, my vacation:

Sarah flew down from Nebraska on Wednesday and we spent the evening driving up to North Carolina. We spent the night at my uncle's Army friend's house (he's a good, safe guy, no worries) and then headed up for the last 2.5 hour portion of the trip before 8am on Thursday. After stopping to get a picture with tobacco plants (we've never seen a tobacco field before), we got to our cousin's house around 10:30 and were greeted with lots of hugs and kisses and screams. :)





My cousins are 4 and a half and 2 and a half and my aunt is about 7 years older than I am so it's really easy to hang out and visit and not feel like I'm stuck with relatives. My uncle's in the military. He's currently stationed on a boat in the Mediterranean for a longer-than-average deployment. He left in March and will be back... as far as I know... around February. Oh, and my older cousin (a year younger than me) recently moved out to North Carolina to live with them for a bit, so we got to see her too).

On Thursday we went out for lunch and then walked around the town they live in. It's cute and old (300 years last year!). After our afternoon out we came back home, napped, and then played at a playground near their house. They live in a cute development area that a golf course runs through. It's quite nice.






On Friday we got up and left for the beach around 9am. We were about an hour from the beach and the kids choose to ride in our car so that we could spend extra time together. :) Towards the end of the trip I was grateful that Sarah was riding with me so she could entertain while I focused on driving. (Kids get annoying.) After the beach we stopped for pizza and then headed home for naps and showers. That evening the kids got a babysitter and the adults headed out to see the new Harry Potter movie. (Woohoo!)






On Saturday we headed back to downtown and perused the Farmer's Market, gathering supplies for lunch. After salads for lunch and snacks for dessert we headed back out to the beach, this time not having quite as much fun in the sun because the waves and undercurrent were much stronger. We stopped by Chick-Fil-A for a short supper and then headed home for the evening.




Sunday was more laid back than the other days. We had planned to leave Sunday afternoon to make it home before dark that night but didn't get off to as quick of a start as I'd hoped. We left our cousin's around 3pm and made it home around 10:45 which wasn't toooo bad but was later than I'd expected. We spent the pre-3 hours hanging out, lounging around and resting up from a weekend that had been so much fun.

I LOVED my cousins so hard this visit. The last two times I'd visited they'd been a little too little and a little too rowdy for me to fully enjoy them but this time was different. Not even 20 minutes after we'd arrived and I'd sat down, my younger cousin climbed up in my lap and spent the next while singing me nonsense songs. And every morning after I'd gotten out of bed but before the day had started, the older cousin would cuddle in my lap, asking me to pretend he was a baby. This involved me rocking him, feeding him, and commenting on how adorable he was. :)



Since their dad's away right now I think they're a little more sentimental than normal. He's deployed before but they were younger then and probably didn't understand (or notice) the big difference in their lives. Now that they're more aware, it's easier to see how they're affected. Each of them has a blanket that has a bit of their daddy's love in it and they'd each offer their blankets to me randomly, telling me that I could have some of their dad's love. :)



And who can forget about the silly things kids say?! Adi, my younger cousin, could never seem to say my name when someone asked who I was but after Sarah told her I was a princess (something Adi's kind of into right now) my name became Princess. I have to say, it wasn't a horrible nickname. :) Towards the end of the weekend, Julian, the older cousin, started calling me Princess Jessica.

Julian and his family have a Jeep Wrangler Limited and they often drive without the windows or doors on. When we were getting something out of my Honda Accord Julian asked me if I ever took my doors off. It caught me a bit off guard but reminded me how cute kids are at this age.



Vacations should never end. :)

(P.S. It was really good to see Melinda and Tori too. They reminded me how much people can love me, something I sometimes forget living all the way out here in Georgia.)

Status Report

Books I've read this summer (in order):
-Man Walks Into a Room
-Eating Animals
-The Managed Heart
-Elsewhere, USA
-The Pecking Order
-Veronika Decides to Die
-Hunger Games
-Catching Fire
-Mockingjay

Yaye reading!  P.S. My Kindle rocks. You should buy one, really!

I've got stats to do this weekend, two articles to finish today, and progress to make. I can do it. I will!  (And then I'll drink and be merry.)

Improvements

Have I mentioned my summer goals in here yet? I don't think so. Let's review!

1.) Write for 10-30 minutes (at least) each day. EACH. DAY. This includes Sunday. This means no breaks. Unless something dire comes up, and it shouldn't.
2.) Read a book a week. (So far I've read two books. I'm on schedule with when I started, which was a week after summer started. That means if I have extra time I want to squeeze in an extra book.) I'm almost done with my third one. I'm breaking them down into sections so I don't overwhelm myself. (The current book is 40 pages a day, which is doable.)
3.) Read an article a day. This one's lofty and not really happening yet. I've read three articles this summer! That's way less than one a day. (And this is a weekday only goal.)
4.) Do an hour of stats a week. I haven't done any yet but I'm really only 2-3 away from my goal. I'm planning on going into the office to work on this tomorrow. That's also been my plan all week so hopefully it'll actually happen tomorrow.
5.) Easy, medium, and hard. A professor suggested I have one of each of these to work on each day so that I can break from one and still work on something else to be productive. This goal isn't as easily defined so I can't really fail at it, as long as I do something for the day. So far my writing's been my "hard" and the others just kind of work themselves out.

I bought a book (this one!) to help me write. It's titled Writing Your Dissertation in Fifteen Minutes a Day and while it's not exactly targeted towards me, I'm finding it helpful. The key points (thus far) are as follows:

- WRITE! (every day)
- Write first. (write before you do anything else)
- Don't focus on what you're writing (at first) just work into the habit of continuously writing.
- Try to get addicted to writing. Find out where you like to write, when, with what environment (music playing, at the coffee shop, home alone, etc).
 - Build up to writing more and more every day. Start with 10-15 minutes and move forward from there.
 - After you get addicted, set a goal (page goal, hour goal, idea goal) for each day and work until you get there. I think I'm going to work for the page goal. The author says a 3-6 page a day goal is good.
 - The goal at this step is just to WRITE. The 3-6 pages might end up getting trashed, but they'll get you thinking about the ideas/etc that will form your work.
 - Develop a zero draft. This draft won't be shown to anyone but might include some things that could be "right or wrong."
 - Build from the zero draft to your first draft.

I've taken a break from the book to work up to my zero draft and my first draft. So far I'm just working on writing consistently and allowing myself to write without criticizing it. One of my big hang ups is thinking that everything I write is crap. Hopefully this will help kick that out of my head.

I'll build on this next time, I just wanted to write this down. Let you know how it's going.

Blah

I've got a plan for being productive over the summer.

I want to: read a book a week, an article a day, write for 10-30 minutes a day, and work (part time) 20 hours a week. I'm finding the first and last of my goals easily attainable. I've got lots of free time and it's too hot to enjoy being active outside most of the day so I'm doing well with my reading and working. Well, reading of books anyway.

I like that I'm reading a story. That I'm having a conversation about a topic. It feels like a long documentary. It's enjoyable.

I've got a mental block when it comes to writing and reading articles. I'm afraid that I won't have anything valuable to say. That when I write, my work will be disputable and elementary and worthless. That the argument I want to make has been made before and better. That I have nothing new to bring to the table. That I'm good at reading and learning but bad at creating and growing.

I'm going to be in my third year of grad school soon. I remember coming in to the program and meeting all of the then third years and being impressed with how much they knew, how productive they were. In your third year here students take a teaching prep course. I'm really excited about the idea of teaching but feel like I'm pretending to be knowledgeable enough to scrape through school.

I feel like a fraud. I do really well in my classes but I can't do the research (well) on my own. I know this is a hurdle I've got to mentally overcome but I'm not there yet. I haven't mustered up the strength to push through this insecurity.

New URL, Same Inattention

Happy June!

So, here's the deal. My blog was created using blogger but it was created using an account I don't use much anymore (ica.29@hotmail.com) and I couldn't change it so that it would be associated with my regular Google monopoly of goodness. That was annoying. In an attempt to line up all my eggs in my basket, I've moved all that stuff to this new address, now associated with the email address I use almost exclusively now (jessicaseberger@gmail.com).

I can't promise I'll update more but I will not have to finagle my way into my blog account to post so here's to hopes and dreams.

Ebbs and Flows

Things around here are busy this week. It goes in waves... a week of nothing, a week of everything. It's life.

From Sunday until this morning we hosted a prospective grad student. I look back on my recruitment fondly and was excited to be able to host someone. I didn't host anyone my first year because I was one of the 3 people in charge of recruitment and had other responsibilities. I (sadly) didn't get to spend as much time with my recruit as I would have liked but the time together was good. She talked about her research interests, her past, her education, all of the normal stuff, and it made me happy. It's not the stories she told; I think I just liked the reflection aspect of recruitment. It was nice to get to look back from where I've come. See how much I've grown. How jaded (in some regards) I've become and smile at the thought of innocent Jessica.

I spent the weekend cleaning and relaxing and the last two days hurrying to get stuff done. I took a nap today between classes and switched from my glasses to contacts before going back to school. After I left Linny stole my glasses from the coffee table and showed them some love. She chewed the ear pieces up pretty well but the lenses look pretty good. There are only one or two scratches. I wonder if it'll be easier to get new glasses or just new ear pieces. (I'd get new glasses here. Ashley's gotten a pair from here before and they were less than $20 when all was said and done.)

I got home from school tonight and took Linny for a long walk to make up for the lack of attention lately. It rained all weekend and then we were busy yesterday so it's been a few days since she had a good walk. We walked for over an hour and then went to the cemetary for 20 minutes and she ran all over there. She's been pretty low-key since we got home though so I think she's good.

We'll see. Nothing (of mine) is safe with a pup in the house. It amuses me... I don't think she's ever chewed up anything of Chase's. And she lays by me when we're both on our computers. But she cuddles more with Chase. But I don't like cuddling as much as he does. It's interesting to see her preferences.

I used to spend Tuesday nights watching The Biggest Loser and Parenthood but we don't get NBC anymore so I've got to find something else to do. I thought about reading and ended up here. Reading's overrated anyway.

I think I'll watch last week's House online. I "deserve" a break anyway... especially if I want to get through the rest of the week.

P.S. Would you like me to recap my spring break trip?

I know...

It's been a month since I last posted.

I don't have much I want to say today but I'd like to share two pictures with you.

April 10, 2008


and

March 16, 2011

Brain Dump

This one's gonna be pretty short but I just wanted to write a few things down.

It's been pretty wonderful here the last two weeks. Most days are in the 60's and it hasn't rained in at least that long. I was SO SICK of the cold, winter rain. I would MUCH RATHER have snow than the rain that we get. It blows and it's wet and it takes forever to get warm again. And if it was juuust a bit colder, it'd be snow and the wind wouldn't be a problem! /whine

I think the weather does a lot for my mood. I've been really motivated lately to get out and do things. I haven't felt as overwhelmed as I was a few weeks ago and I'm (arguably) more productive now. I've got a 20 page essay to write this week so I'm not really even thinking about my thesis but... it'll get done.

I've decided I want to run a 5k before it gets too hot here. I'm thinking about March 19th but I don't know if I can train to be able to run the whole thing by then. I went for a run yesterday and it was easier than I remember it being. (The p90x was probably to blame for the ease.) And I need to remember to lift weights more often.

Chase and I are trying to be conservative with our money right now. I'm pressuring him (a lot) to get a job and unless he does, we're not going to be able to move in the fall. That would REALLY bum me out. I spent Friday night applying for jobs for him. I have more motivation than he does to get a job (which is frustrating) but right now it just matters that he gets a job. Sigh.

And paper time. Happy Sunday!